What the fuck.
What the fuck is wrong with everybody. I have no fucking friends. I say that but I don’t mean it. Bayleigh is girl. NOT girl friend, despite the nasty rumors, I am not a fucking lesbian. Now don’t take offense to that, I just hate being mad fun of and picked on for something I’m not. And sure, I may make jokes but damn, this has been going on for 3 years so I’ll pretend it doesn’t bother me at times. I mean shit, I’m glad Bayleigh is still my friend after all the shit with my parents thinking she was my lesbian lover. Shut the fuck up you childish bitches. And then there’s my friend who I’ve known for like 8 years. Not as long as I’ve known Bayleigh but still. A fucking LONG TIME. FUCKING LONG ASS TIME. And one minute she wants to be my friend and then she drops me 7 months ago because I’m not a fucking whore and I don’t party and whore around. Oh wow, good reason to drop someone who is supposed to be YOUR BEST FRIEND. Well FUCK YOU. I thought hanging out with her last week would be good. I guess 5 days was too many and we got tired of each other because she’s been tweetin shit about me all day. THANKS A LOT. It’s not like I’m not going through a really hard time in my life or anything. I mean I only moved away from my abusive father two days ago and I’m still getting threats and shit. And there’s my ex who is spreading nasty rumors around about me that dreadfully hurt my feelings, but according to my friend I’m supposed to get over it and not let it bother me. Fuck that, if someone is tearing me down and degrading me in front of my siblings at school, IT FUCKING HURTS. Bayleigh is grounded and I’m living with my bat shit crazy grandma and I seriously have no fucking friends to talk to and I have therapy and nothing helps. It’s just so hard to live. I may seem like I have it together, but I’ve always been good at pretending. No one ever gives me a break about anything and I always get the blame for some kind of shit. I really hate that I have to go to a community college next year. I was 17 when I was applying for colleges and shit and my parents had to pay the application fees. Even though I’m smart, they wouldn’t even allow me to apply to a major university. My dad is furious I moved out and thankfully won’t say much to me, except when he does it’s hateful as anything ever. I just want a friend so bad sometimes. Or an adult to help me out with something. I’m so sad right now. and angry. Mainly sad today.
